I miss our little talks

Sometimes I think its better when we argued.

Because then at least it meant you cared.

But now you ignore me

                                  almost 

                                       like

                                            I'm

                                               not 

                                                   there.

I miss our little talks, and call me introverted;

But usually 

                                          whether I deserved it or not....

                  you cared. 

                                                         But you don't want to talk anymore.

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I'm learning how to play 'Little Talks' by Of Monsters and Men' on my guitar.

I use Ultimate Guitar on my PC and iPhone, and it has the chords and tabs for pretty much every song imaginable and a wealth of guitar-ing knowledge!

I digress... Anyway Little Talks is my song of the moment, its so meaningful and deep. Its where the inspiration for my poem-thingy (not sure what it is ...) came from.


 Every time I listen to Little Talks I think of new meanings behind the lyrics. 
Its the perfect brooding song. 

My next post is a monthly favourites.... *fingers crossed* hopefully writing it down will instill it into my forgetful and lazy mind. 

'There's an old voice in my head that's holding me back


                               

Tell her that I miss our little talks'

-Little talks, Of monsters and men

*Sparkle*---

Rachel   xxx

MUA Artiste Palette

I've been doing a lot of advice-y type posts, so I thought it was time to switch it up!

I'm going to review a multi-use palette by a brand called MUA, which- as far as I know, is a brand only available at SUPERDRUG stores.

The palette contains 6 eye shadows, 2 blushers, 1 bronzer and 1 highlighter.

The eyeshadows have a 'marbled effect', evident in the pictures.This means that the shadows have speckles of a complementing colour in there.

 I don't think it makes much difference to the overall colour on the lids, but it does look very pretty in the pan, and I'm all over pretty!

MUA do a whole range of affordable, generally great quality makeup pieces for the price.

I was kindly gifted this palette by Amy, over at The Camera's Lying Blog and The Camera Lies Beauty

via a twitter giveaway, of which I was lucky enough to have won! :-)

Thank you, Amy! *Does Girl Guides Thank you clap, brownie points if you know what I mean!*
'thank you
       thank you
              thank you
                     thank you!'

After a verrrryyyyy long day, I came home to this little palette in the mail, along with a handwritten note which I thought was so sweet of Amy!

Being a fiend of all things shiny and colourful, I had to swatch the colours right away; no matter how tired I was at the time.

I was quite impressed, especially as this palette retails for £4 in Superdrug, I believe.

The matt bronzer is perfect for my skin tone (and I suspect it would be for most skin tones, its that kind of versatile product we all love!)

 'Chocolate' would have to be my favorite colour, (5th colour in from the left)  and I usallly use it as an all over lid colour; as it is neutral yet provides a subtle shimmer. 

Blush/bronzer/highligher from the second row.

left-right: Pink Sparkle; Primrose, Bronzed, Shimmer Kiss

                    Eye shadows from the first row.

        bottom-top: Pistachio, Mocca, Ice,Grape,Chocolate,Cookie.

(Informative little side note:

Funnily enough, I was eyeing up this palette a few weeks prior, and decided to maybe get it later on: I obviously didn't have to..)

Hope that was interesting, not really sure how to do these type of things haha.

*Sparkle*---

Rachel   xxx

I'm beautiful. And so are you.

Beauty.

The source of lust, love, envy, self-deprecation, low-self esteem, vanity, and discrimination among many other things.

But what is it? 

The question that many people aren't asking.

They assume that being 'beautiful' is what they see on their magazine cover: the perfect airbrushed skin, pristine hair & makeup and an almost non-existent waist.

Those people aren't real. They are commericalized, and fake.

And more importantly, they give women (and men too) an unobtainable goal to work towards, leading industries such as cosmetics, gyms, and clothing to boom.

If you can't fit into that pair of jeans, 

If you can't seem to get rid of that acne no matter how many different creams you use, 

If you aren't allowed to wear makeup

If you don't have a flat stomach,

If you don't have the drive to work out to have the muscles that all the girls 'swoon over'
Then  you don't seem like you are good enough.

I see so-oh-so many girls at my secondary school: orange from fake-tan, their face caked with makeup: crowding around the bathroom mirror to apply yet MORE concealer.

I guess that's okay, if it makes you happy, but I doubt it does. 

Self confidence comes from within, not from a tube; and no matter how you try to kid yourself that you are confident because no one else can see your external flaws, you still know that they're there. 

You'll know that you have that spot under all the concealer, 

and even deeper; you know that you need to learn algebra, work on your organization skills, think before you speak...

What I'm saying is, all of these vain things are just cover up's NOT solutions.... if you aren't comfortable with yourself.

Work to fix those things that you are unsure about, not cover them up. Obvious right *dripping with sarcasm*

So instead of skipping dinner in an attempt to be slimmer, or straightening your hair because you can't stand your curls, sit down; and think. 

Think about who you are, what you have achieved, and if you are proud of yourself, your choices, your character.

And if you are not, endeavor to change it. 

Write down some of  your more achievable character goals on a sticky note, and stick it somewhere you'll be able to see it every day. Then, hopefully you can accomplish these things, causing your confidence to increase, and you won't have to hide who you are. 

'Confidence is more beautiful to see than anything else.'

And if you want to lose a bit of weight, wear a bit of eyeliner, lift some weights when you ARE confident with yourself; its fine because you know that you'll be just as contented with these things, as you were before, as you are not hiding behind them.

 I think that I'm beautiful.
            And I think you are beautiful too. 

                                                            Now its time for you to think the same.

*Sparkle*---

Rachel   xxx

That's why I want to fly.

You're talented, appreciated but not really understood.

But- when you die
your fame goes sky-high

Isn't it obvious
That's why I want to fly.

to die.

For everyone to know me. To go sky high.

Well I feel like that made no sense whatsoever, but I got inspired from a conversation between my dad and I. We were talking about how when a famous person dies they usually become more famous than they ever were when they were alive.

E.G:
Michael Jackson
Elvis Presley.
Vincent Van Gogh
Etc...

It seems that they only really care when you are dead. & then you don't even get to appreciate it.

*Sparkle*---

Rachel   xxx

Precious lil' knick-nacks...

Let's talk jewellery.

Jewellery has to ability to completely change an outfit, and it's fun & cute.

 But it's also sentimental, linked to memories- and I'm sure most people have a piece of jewellery that means a lot to them. 

Here are mine: 

1) 

This is a ring that my mum gave to me just over a year ago. We were looking through her jewellery box, and this ring caught my attention. It's quite small and delicate, but shines so brightly. (And I'm a sucker for silver!)

My Nan gave the ring to my Mum when she was a young adult,  a bit older than me. I knew that this present would have meant a lot to my mum at the time because money was quite tight around that time and my Nan used to work so hard. After telling me this story, my mum offered gave it to me.

I wear this at every opportunity I have; which is every second apart from when I'm at school!

 I forgot to take it off one morning, and had to take it off at school and put it in my blazer pocket. Which, happened to have a unknown hole in, making me think I'd lost it, but I found it deeper in my blazer a few weeks later, which was a relief to say the least!!

This ring means to me: Love, Hard work, my mum and my Nan.

2) This is a locket necklace from Beaverbrooks that my brother and his girlfriend (now fiance!) gave to me about 5 years ago, when I was leaving with my mum and my dad to go live in Australia (we are back now, btw). On the back it has engraved:

"Love Always X"

But the camera wouldn't pick that up.

 I wear this so much too, its my go to necklace. This necklace reminds me of a pivotal moment in my life, and brings back a surge of memories,  & how I was feeling at that point in my life.

My brother has always been there for me, and his fiance,(for as long as I've known her) and I love them both soooo much.

So this  necklace means to me: Sibling love, an important moment in my life, and the fact that I'm never without them (even if the Indian Ocean is separating us :-)  

So these are some things that are special to me. Funny how its not the most expensive thing, or even the thing  I use the most..... Price or amount of usage, CAN'T make something special.

It's the memories behind it , the giver who gave it, and the sentimental value behind it.

Material things will make you happy, but only for a while.

Have you ever scratched a mosquito bite, and had a bit of relief and happiness; but too soon the itch came back again with vengeance, demanding to be scratched again?

Materials things are a bit like that. They'll make you happy, give you relief for a while, but soon you'll have to scratch that itch again, buying more materials things in a perpetual cycle.

However, memories remain, often to the end.

 Its funny how sometimes people think gifts always have to be physical, palpable things. 

Sometimes a memory is worth a lot more than material things, and not necessarily monetary worth. 

So next time you have a gift-giving opportunity come around, (whether that be a birthday, Christmas etc) think of a day out, think of spending time with the special person, and a small gift to remind them of that special time spent together- instead of just the newest gadget that you saw advertising or a couple hundred pounds.

*Sparkle*---

Rachel   xxx

Singing sweet songs.

Birds.

Let me tell a little story.....

It was a lovely sunny day in MissRachelReidy land, and Rachel was outside supervising her cats, as they ran around the garden having fun (she had to supervise them because they were indoor cats, as this blog post HERE will inform you)

So she was watching them, whilst enjoying the lovely weather. 

She heard one of her cats (J-Jay) make a low growling noise, so she went over to investigate.

He was laying on some mud (note that the mud is brown... obviously. Is relevant later on). 

Suddenly out of nowhere, a large *BROWN* (hence why she didn't notice it straight away) BIRD comes flying out from under Jay-Jay's paws.

Which made Rachel quite surprised.

Clever cat.

But poor bird.

You know the whole caged bird thing? 

How there's like a bird in a cage and its meant to symbolise liberty, blahdebaba..

Its http://www.the-cameras-lying.com/ blog artwork, FYI.

It is just me but why do I feel that more birds are free than caged?

I see more birds flying free everyday than ones that are caged.

I seem to find that more people are caged than birds.

Trapped in their daily routine. 

Their society.

Their way of thinking. 

Their thoughts.

Their peers.

Their friends. 

                    I could go on forever; and what makes it sad is that most don't even know they are     restrained. I am, and like everyone else: I'm not fully aware of it.

Think outside the box. 

Dream Big!

But I'm becoming more aware.

That's the key to free yourself.

Find the key.

Phew! Its hard to write a deeeeeeeepp post. I know what I mean, but it's hard to put into words.

I just hope it doesnt sound to pretentious or whatever, because thats's not the kind of feeling I want to put across. 

Im going to go and watch 'The Apprentice now' :-)

Duh-aDuh-A-duhand-duh-aduhaduadunnnnndunn!!!

Ohh and that song 'Three Little Birds' by Bob Marley talks about not worrying.
 Birds & not worrying.
Its a sign!!! Check it out HERE...

*Sparkle*---

Rachel   xxx

Me.

I love

that you care.
                                           About me.

that you love.
                                            Me.                                                

that you want

only the best.
                                            For me.

that you advise.
                                             Me.
that you teach.
                                             Me.
that you control.
                                             Me.
that you worry.
                                            About me.


But sometimes, all I want is
 for you to
                 listen to                
                                            Me.